the last box is finally unpacked!!

akhirnyaaa,,, setelah setahun di cepu, box terakhir yang gw bawa dari jakarta dibongkar juga
ga ada alasan khusus kenapa box terakhir ini blom dibongkar
isinya adalah bebajuan, one big jumbo box, full with clothes,,, :p

ini lemari barunya,,,, it's cute, isn't it? :)

bukannya gw ga mau bongkar, tapi emang kaga ada tempatnya
lemari bajunya kaga cukup cuy,,,,
trus kenapa akhirnya bisa dibongkar
tentu saja karena gw invest lemari, beli lemari baru
bukan lemari baju pada umumnya, tapi lemari yang terdiri dari  4 laci dan 1 rak buku
lemarinya imut, dari kayu jati dan rancangan gw sendiri
yaaaa,,,, nyontek lemari2 di pilem2 itu loooh
lemarinya cantik,,,, ada ukiran di tengah lacinya
yang gw sesalin adalah karena kebodohan gw, salah ukur, lemarinya jadi lebih kecil dari yang gw pengenin
kalo bisa lebih panjang mah mungkin bisa nampung lebih banyak barang

anyhow, ternyata lemari ini cukup membantu
menampung sebagian barang gw kaya handuk, seprai, mukena, kerudung, underwear & pashmina
sehingga menambah ruang di lemari baju dan bisa menampung baju-baju dari box
oh dan tentu saja ada sejumlah baju yang gw hibahkan ke mba Har, yang bantuin di rumah

i am relieved,,,, akhirnya box terakhir itu bisa dienyahkan dari kamar gw
dan kamar gw jadi sedikit lebih rapi dan lebih bersih,, :)

breach

Ryan Phillippe , sluurrrp,, *ngelap iler*

alasan pertama gw pengen nonton pilem ini adalah karena yang maen ryan phillippe

a damn good looking guy,,, *slurrrpp* hehehe,,,

yang kedua adalah karena pilem ini bertemakan conspiracy theory, 

dan yang terakhir, konon pilem ini based on true story

bercerita tentang Eric O'Neill (Ryan Phillippe) yang jadi kru lapangan FBI,

memiliki latar belakang keahlian di bidang IT dan bercita-cita jadi agen FBI

suatu saat tiba-tiba dipanggil bosnya (yang agen FBI), diberi tugas baru

Eric akan menjadi asisten Special Agent Hanssen, seorang agen senior yang sempat lama ditugaskan sebagai intelijen di Soviet, spesialisasi di bidang IT

tugasnya simpel aja, memata-matai Hanssen dan melaporkan apapun yang dilakukan Hanssen setiap hari kepada bosnya

kenapa?

well,,, Hanssen dicurigai telah membocorkan rahasia intelijen AS kepada Rusia (Uni Soviet)

dia menyebabkan 50 mata-mata AS diketahui identitasnya dan ditangkap oleh musuh, 3 di antaranya dieksekusi oleh KGB, belum lagi kerugian material dan aset yang tak terhitung jumlahnya

di awal tugasnya, Eric merasa tugas ini main-main saja

karena Hanssen dilihatnya hanyalah seorang agen tua yang 2 bulan lagi akan pensiun

seorang penganut Katholik yang taat, setia pada istri dan dicintai anak-cucunya,

tidak ada yang aneh dalam kesehariannya

Hanssen justru mendorongnya untuk kembali ke gereja (Eric juga Katholik), banyak memberi saran dan nasehat tentang pekerjaan, hidup, agama

Hanssen juga sebenarnya agen yang paranoid, dia banyak melakukan test pada Eric untuk melihat apakah Eric bisa dipercaya

dengan gaya lugunya dan kebetulan sebagai sesama penganut Katholik,  Eric dianggap lolos test oleh Hanssen

untuk membuat Eric percaya bahwa tugasnya tidak main-main, FBI memberinya setumpuk berkas,
print out email-email Hanssen kepada musuh AS, aktivitas harian Hanssen
ada task force khusus di FBI untuk menjebak Hanssen, beranggotakan 50 orang
tujuan tim ini adalah menangkap basah Hanssen saat sedang membocorkan rahasia intelijen kepada pihak musuh
dan semua ini bergantung pada kesuksesan Eric dalam menjalankan tugasnya

di saat Hanssen sudah mempercayai Eric dan semua berjalan lancar,
email terakhir Hanssen kepada pihak musuh menyatakan bahwa dia berhenti,
tidak akan bisa memberikan informasi rahasia lagi
nah loo,,, gimana mo menangkap basah?
terjadilah kehebohan di dunia persilatan

but once again, thanx to Eric,
dia menantang Hanssen, dan mendorong Hanssen untuk tetap membocorkan rahasia kepada pihak musuh
tentu saja secara implisit, tidak secara langsung,
keesokan harinya Hanssen benar-benar melakukannya
meletakkan sejumlah dokumen berlabel TOP SECRET di bawah jembatan di taman
dan FBI berhasil menangkapnya

terus,,,bagaimana dengan Eric?
dia dapat promosi doong, dan langsung diajukan untuk diangkat menjadi agen
tapi dia memilih mengundurkan diri
menjadi agen tidak semudah yang dia kira
sepanjang penyamarannya sebagai asisten Hanssen, dia tidak bisa menceritakan apapun terkait tugasnya kepada istrinya
dan itu menyedihkan, membuat Eric bertengkar dengan istrinya, hampir setiap hari
jadi, instead of mewujudkan cita-citanya menjadi agen FBI, Eric memilih hidup normal dan bahagia bersama istrinya
sementara Hanssen dipenjara seumur hidup, di penjara dengan maximum security, selama 23 jam setiap harinya dia ditempatkan di sel terpisah, tanpa sinar matahari

end of story

buat pencinta pilem action, pilem ini akan membosankan. buat pencinta cowo ganteng, kaya gw, hehehe,,, pilem ini kategori lumayan, secara kita bisa mantengin ryan phillippe sepuasnya,,, :D

a slap on my face

i felt like God had slapped me on my face last friday,,,

i fell down from my motorcycle
it was an ordinary morning
i rushed to the office, because a lot of things to do and i want an early start
i drove my motorcycle too fast and my mind was wandering
when i took left turn to the office, a car suddenly passed in front of me
i grab the brake and suddenly i fell down
i guess the road is kinda sandy so my motorcycle slipped

overall i was okay, i just got some scratches and bruises on my left leg and my right arm
oh and it hurts by the way
it still hurts until now

why do i felt like i was slapped?
i don't know,,,
maybe because i was being grumpy and ungrateful lately
so this accident was meant to make me to do so
grateful that i was okay

nevertheless,,, i shall put my feet back on the gorund
accepting the fact and reality
to deal with whatever i have and wherever i am now
stop looking back and looking up

mungkin juga kurang sedekahnya
kadang kita merasa telah cukup sedekah
tapi manatau masih ada hak orang lain dalam harta yang kita miliki

alhamdulillah,,, thank's for reminding me, dear God
hopefully this accident help me on becoming a better person
so help me God,,,

30 is the new 20

owwwh,,, i've finally graduated from my twenties and begin my thirties
how time flies so fast
i barely remembered my early twenties
20, 21, 22 and 23 were my college years. i guess those were the times when i had to struggle with my grades, involved in some organization activities and managed to still had all the fun
23 was when I graduated and eligible to hold my degree as Environmental Engineer,,, whatever that means,, :D
23 was also my age when i got my first job, real job
of course i had a full year of class and on the job training in Management Development Program in a bank, and continued to work in Mortgage Department
i had a blissfull, wonderful but sometimes stressful moment there for 2 years
what can i say,,, i met friends and family there, i learnt a lot not only about mortgage but also about working, socializing and interacting with bosses and colleagues
26 was when i had my first promotion becoming senior officer
it was also the year when i took another turn, leaving for another job
there was nothing wrong from the previous job
i just had to take the new opportunity, see where it was going to take me
so i spent another year for training in the new company, an oil and gas company
having so much ups and downs and new experiences
27 was when i finished my training and start the real job
so until my last twenties and my early thirties, i'm still hanging around on this company

i've met people, made friends, fallen in love and broken hearted, had fun, got myself into trouble, disappointed, angry and many more things
and i'm thankful for those experiences
cause they're making me who i am today
and i'm thankful for my parents and brother, my relatives for  loving me and understanding me
oh i had a big family, we didn't meet so often
but once we met, it's a hell of fun,,, :D

anyways,, my thirties has begun, ready or not,
let's make another wonderful journey with the new spirit
because 30 is the new 20
because what is age anyway? it's just a number
i just hope getting wiser and better, not only getting older

so,,, happy birthday to me,,, i wish all the next best things,,,
whatever that may,,,, amiiin,,,,   :))

jogjaaa,,,

hari ini pak bos kasih kabar gembira,,,
minggu depan gw disuruh training seminggu, di jogjaaaa,,,ohohohoho,,,,,
trainingnya nampaknya cukup santai
dan terbayang lah liburan berselubung training ini

yang gw bayangin adalah malioboro, mirota, angkringan, jalan2, hehehe,,,
ga niat banget yak gw,,,,

terima kasih pak bos,,,
nampaknya beliau tahu anak buahnya ini butuh liburan, walau berselubung training

merindu,,,

melihat liputan haji akhir-akhir ini bikin gw kangen ama mekkah dan madinah.
it's not like i've been living there for years,,,
i've been there for 7 days only, 3 days in madinah and 4 days in mecca.
yup, cuma umrah siy,,

tapi liat liputan haji kali ini, bikin gw merindu kedua kota itu.
melihat jalanannya, bangunannya, suasana kotanya, dan tentu saja masjid nabawi dan masjidil haram
oh i really missed those days, wanna come back there
ingin merasakan kembali kedekatan ama Allah SWT
ingin merasakan berada di kota tempat Nabi Muhammad dan sahabat-sahabatnya pernah berada
dan yang paling utama, ingin merasakan kembali perasaan "pulang ke rumah"
siapapun gw, tak peduli dari mana gw berasal or apa yang udah gw lakukan,
disana gw merasa sama dengan semua orang, merasa diterima dan disambut
diperlakukan sebagai tamu Allah

duuuuh,,,, merindu sekaliiiiiii kembali ke sanaaa,,,, ya Allah, berilah hamba kesempatan kembali ke rumah-Mu ,,, amiiiin

masjid nabawi setelah subuh

kota madinah

depan masjidil haram

ka'bah

are you happy?

on one of our regular night, dalam hal ini maksudnya lagi ngemil, nonton tipi and baca majalah, yuni tiba-tiba menyadari sesuatu,,,, "waah bentar lagi kamu ultah mbak, 30 tahun!! bagaimana perasaanmu? are you happy?"

hmm,,, truth to be told, it took me seconds to finally answer, "yes, i'm happy. why wouldn't i?"

i was kinda annoyed with this thing. not because i'm almost 30. or because yuni asked me that question. but because it took me seconds to decide that i'm happy. geez,,,is my life that pathetic?

well,,, i blame my job for this one. my job sucks. whose doesn't anyway? hehehe,,, but mine, it is irritating, unhealthy, got me grumpy all day, even at night,,, i'm sick with all those paperworks on my desk, uncooperated people at the office, and all that crappy thing i have to deal with. oh i just wanna get my a*s out of here,,, yes, maybe i am not happy.

but what is happiness anyway? i always thought that happiness is only a state of mind. it is us who decided at the end of the day whether this was a good day or a bad day. and it's not easy to stay positive and choose the good day everyday.

maafkan akan keluh kesah saya kali ini. hanya sedang merasa kesaaaaaal dan sebaaaaaaal. my dear God, if it is possible, i wanna take another turn in my life. right here, right now, right away. please.

hot weather on 10.10.10

after rainy days last week, the weather today is extremely hot,,hot,,hot,,, the sun shines so bright and strong. some people on my timeline said it's because today is special. the date is 10.10.10. a lot of people are getting married so they hired a weatherman to hold the rain. well, whatever,,, i said, blame it on global warming, people,,,,

anyhow, in a middle of the day, in a middle of hot weather, i had to iron my laundry. fiuuuhhh,,,,,*ngelap keringet* it made me thinking, how come hell can be hotter than this??? :p

Julie & Julia

It's a great movie by great women,,, Directed by Nora Ephron (the woman who wrote Sleepless in Seattle, You've Got Mail, etc), and the main actresses are Merryl Streep (Julia Child) and Amy Adams (Julie Powell).

Julia Child was living in 40s, a childless housewife, and she's following her husband to Paris. She joined a cooking class and ended up writing her recipes on cooking book. On 20th century, year 2002 to be exact, Julie Powell, a government employee, somehow owned that book. She said she stole it from her mother. She's married to Eric, an editor, and they're living in a 900 ft2 apartment in Queens. She's almost 30, thinking her job is sucks and envy her successfull girlfriends. She felt that she should do something, that she could claim as her accomplishment.

Considering her passion is cooking, cause she found it so refreshing after a bad day at work, she decided to have "The Julie/Julia Project". She will cook 524 recipes from Julia Child's book in 365 day, and write it in a blog. During the project, there were ups and downs, and some flashback to Julia Child's life. The 2 stories intertwines. Very interesting,,, and very Nora Ephron, I might say. Because both Julie & Julia are persistent women, sometimes clumsy and sensitive, but they'd never given up on anything, including their husbands.

I just love this movie. It's inspiring. It made me want to learn to cook more and to write in my blog more. Cooking can be done by everyone, a housewive or a working woman. It is about passion and willingness.

finally, julie has accomplished her "Julie / Julia Project"

This is my favourite line, said by Julia Child's husband to her, on Valentine's Day and it was quoted by Julie Powell to her husband, Eric Powell,,, "You are the butter of my bread. The breath of my life. I love you." Sweet,,, :)

,,,a friend indeed,,,

Gw baru patah hati. Kalo jatuh cinta berjuta rasanya, kalo patah hati bisa minus tuh,,,, heuuuuu,,,, Untuk menghilangkan kesedihan, dan tentu saja mencari penghiburan, gw ceritakan hal ini ke beberapa teman dekat. Well,,, tentu saja responnya beragam,,, tapi intinya mereka menghibur dengan mengatakan,,, "sutralaaaah,,, ikhlaskan saja, masih banyak ikan di laut,,,"

Dari semua respon,,, gw merasa paling bahagia dengan respon Sari & Mba Vina. Curhatan gw disampaikan secara live, saat gw dinas ke Jakarta dan kami ber-3 sedang di taksi, otw mo lunch di Sencit. Gw cerita kalo lelaki yang akhir-akhir ini menjadi 'the object of my affection' dan nampak single, ternyata sudah punya pacar. Ooohhh sedihnyaaaa,,,,

Sari : emang siapa nama pacarnya?
Gw. : entahlaaaah,,,, tapi namanya Nia (bukan nama sebenarnya yak, -red-)
Sari : ah nama macam apa pula itu? Bagusan juga namamu! *nada naik 1 oktaf lebih tinggi*
Mba Vina : iyaaa,,, dia pasti ga jago bikin puding kaya kamu *ikutan nimbrung dengan penuh semangat*

Gw sempet bengong sesaat. Tapi langsung ketawa, meluk mereka dan berterima kasih. Apa yang mereka sampaikan tadi tuh maksaaa banget. Tapi poinnya adalah,,, mereka ngebelain gw. Menurut mereka gw lebih baik dari wanita itu. Dari sisi manapun, dari segi apapun. Walau pembelaan yang mereka ajukan lemah, tak berdasar, dan tentu saja maksa abeeess!! They stood by me, even if I did something stupid. That's all I need at this moment. Nothing else matters.

Sari and Mba Vina,,, glad to have you gals in my life. You're not only a friend in need, but a friend indeed. It's proven,,,, ☺