This Ramadhan,,,

I feel blessed,,, so blessed and gifted,,,,

This weekend I went home to Jember. Rhino was going home too. Mom & Dad invited orphans from our neighbourhood to break fasting at our house.

Looking at those little kids, so brave, so pure, so innocent, so happy,,,, I was speechless. My heart just melted. Some of them don't have a father to support their lives and to take care of their family. Some of them don't have a mother to love them. Some of them even don't have both father and mother.

I guess I've found the answer of my dilema, the question I've been asking for lately. If I had to work my ass off, working hard like there's no tomorrow, only to help them, to ease their worries away, to support them, to give them a happy childhood like I had,,, I'm more than willing to do so. I'll be gladly to do that.

I guess I just need a reason to stay at this company. Not only for the salary, the facilities, the luxury, the prestige that I got, not only for me nor my pride, but also for those kids. The more money that I make, the more support that I can give them.

If only I could frame those little happy faces, and keep them in my mind. All I want to do was hugging them, told them that life will be hard, but they don't have to be afraid, that they will be okay. Somehow I found strength in their smiles.

Subhanallah,,, maybe this is Ramadhan's blessings. Once again, Allah SWT works in a mysterious way,,,

Para Pencari Tuhan

Gw ngikutin sinetron ini  sejak Ramadhan 2 tahun yang lalu. Gara-gara Sari siiiih,,,hihihi,,, tiap sahur bareng nontonnya ini. Jadi deeeh ikutan nonton. Ternyata bagus juga kok. Semua yang kita temui, kita lihat, kita dengar sehari-hari, terangkum di sana. Dan semua tokohnya juga riil, ga ada yang baeeeeeek banget or jahaaaat banget, kaya tipikal sinetron-sinetron Indonesia.

Misalnya, Pak RW sebagai pimpinan yang ga amanah. Tapi kadang yang dia omongin bener juga, ga selalu salah. Atau Ustadz Ferry, yang panutan warga sekitar, tapi kalau ada ujian keimanan, sempet ragu juga dia. Namanya juga manusia.

Anyhow, Ramadhan kali ini, walaupun ga sahur bareng Sari lagi, tapi gw tetep nonton Para Pencari Tuhan. Karena ceritanya yang ringan, mengingatkan tanpa menggurui, menyindir walau secara tidak langsung. Mungkin juga karena sebenarnya gw salah satu dari mereka, para pencari Tuhan. Dalam semua ketidakpastian dalam hidup, dalam semua masalah yang kita hadapi, kemana lagi kita harus memohon bantuan?

But don't take it the wrong way, doa bukanlah ban serep yang dapat kita keluarkan saat dalam masalah, tapi kemudi untuk menunjukkan arah yang tepat. Ketka Tuhan memecahkan masalah kita, kita memiliki kepercayaan pada kemampuan-Nya. Tapi ketika Tuhan tidak dapat memecahkan masalah kita, Tuhan memiliki kepercayaan pada kemampuan kita. Paragraf terakhir ini gw contek dari bbm group (bukan gw mendadak bijaksana bijaksini yaaaa,,, :D ). Tapi menurut gw, ini bener bangeeet,,, and i just wanna share it to you all,,, May God bless us and be with us in every step that we take. Amiin,,,

The Good, The Bad and The I-Don't-Care

"Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn" - Rhett Butler

Since we're a little kid, we've been taught about the good and the bad. That it's important for us to be good, to our parents, to our friends, to our environment, and to God. That we should treat others with empathy and sympathy. That we should treat others the way we want to be treated. Otherwise, we're just being bad.

But those lessons  didn't taught us about what to be expected. Sometimes things don't go the way we want it to be. Sometimes people just don't treat us the way we want to be treated. But hey,,, we are not the center of the universe. That's the lesson of life. Even John Lennon said, "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans".

When your good is not good enough for some people, when they judge you easily without even giving you any explanation, you can be The Bad, you know. They've judged you anyway. So why should bother? But for me, I'm just stoned. My heart just frozen.  I don't even care. It's just a way to reach a peaceful mind, considering a peaceful mind is the most important thing (quote from Mba Izah,,, :) )

Moral of this posting is : Don't try to understand someone if it makes you tired. Cause life is too short and you won't be able to move on.

Happy fasting, y'all,,,,,

harus memilih

gw ga terlalu percaya ama zodiac, tapi ga sengaja baca di nova terbaru di kios majalah
hihihihi,,,,, isinya bener looooh,,,, tentang dilema gw
yep, at some point, i have to decide,,,
so help me God,,, ;)

molten chocolate cake

resep ini gw dapet dari sini ,,, tentu saja seperti sebelum-sebelumnya, motivasi gw bikin kue ini adalah karena gw pengen molten chocolate cake dan di cepu kaga adeeeeee,,,, udah nyoba bikin 3 kali, dan moral of this recipe is,,,, make sure you understand the performance of your oven,,, karena yang penting dalam pembuatan kue ini adalah waktu dan suhu oven. lapisan luar kuenya harus matang dan kokoh, tapi bagian dalamnya masih lumer jadi saat diiris, akan meleleh-leleh lapisan coklatnya. yummy,,,, kalo waktu panggangnya kelamaan jadi kue cokelat biasa, kaya brownies. waktu family gathering kemarin bikin 1 resep yang dimatangkan semua, rasanya enak juga,,,, leo bisa abis 2 dalam sekali makan. seneng deh kuenya laris maniiiiis,,,, :)

resep berikut untuk 1/2 resep yaaa,,, biasanya bisa jadi 8-9 kue, tergantung cetakan yang dipakai,,,

btw, resep aslinya nih dari abang Gordon Ramsey loooooooh,,,, dimodifikasi oleh mba Hesti,,,

gw copas dari blognya mba Hesti niy :

Bahan :
- 100 gr good quality of dark chocolate, potong-potong kecil
- 50 gr butter
- 50 gr margarin
- 100 gr gula halus
- 2 telur utuh + 2 kuning telur
- 85 gr terigu protein sedang
- 15 gr coklat bubuk (ayak bersama tepung)
- 1/4 sdt garam
- margarin/butter untuk mengoles cetakan
- coklat bubuk untuk dusting cetakan

Cara membuat :

1. Olesi cetakan dengan margarin/butter. Simpan cetakan dalam kulkas sampai membeku. Ulangi lagi mengoles margarin di atas lapisan pertama. Beri coklat bubuk sampai seluruh bagian terkena. Buang sisa coklatnya sambil digoyang-goyangkan.
2. Tim dark chocolate, margarine/butter dan garam sampai meleleh. Aduk rata. Angkat, biarkan dingin selama sekitar 5 menit.
3. Kocok telur, kuning telur dan gula sampai mengembang dan berjejak. Tambahkan tepung perlahan-lahan sambil diaduk sampai rata.
4. Masukkan coklat leleh dalam tiga tahap sambil diaduk rata.
5. Tuang hampir penuh ke dalam cetakan. Simpan di kulkas minimal 20 menit.
6. Panaskan oven 200 C. Masukkan kue ke dalam oven dan panggang sekitar 9 -10 menit sampai permukaannya muncul crust dan pinggirnya sudah mulai terlepas dari cetakan. (kalo pake oven listrik gw, pake suhu 180 C dan 8 menit. itupun setelah bikin kue ke-3 kalinya, baru dapet rumusnya)
7. Angkat. Biarkan 1 menit sebelum ditransfer ke piring saji.
8. Tuang kue ke atas tangan perlahan lalu pindahkan ke piring saji. (gw pake cetakan individual dari aluminium)
9. Sajikan segera dengan saus karamel atau es krim /whip krim.(ice cream is highly recommended)

PS : adonan bisa disimpan di freezer sampai 1 bulan, kalo mau dipanggang, diovennya ditambahin 3-5 menit lagi. rasanya juga lebih enyaaaak,,,,,

PS 2 : fotonya kaga adaaaa,,,, abis biasanya langsung dimakan sih,,,,pake es krim, hihihihi,,,, liat di blognya mba Hesti aja yah,,,, pokoknya rasanya enak bangeeeet,,,

yang gw tunggu ,,,,,

,,,,, di sisa 6 bulan di tahun 2011 ini adalah,,,,

1. rencana umrah sekeluarga plus sari & riesa. well, the luckmans mah keukeuh sumeukeuh,,, niat kami baik, juga karena kami rindu "rumah",,, pulang ke "rumah",,, rasanya kaya nunggu-nunggu waktu buat mudik, hahaha,,,,excited, deg-degan,,, moga-moga terealisasi,,, mudahkanlah usaha dan upaya kami menjadi tamu di rumah-Mu Ya Allah,,,, aamiin,,,,

2. konser linkin park 21 september 2011 di GBK, jakarta. uhuuuuuuyyy,,,,,, sekarang belajar nyanyi and hapalin lagu-lagunya. yuk yak yuuuuuuks,,,,, tak sabar nonton chester bennington, mike shinoda, joseph hahn.

 

changes

"the only constant is change" -unknown-

i got those line from a director of my previous office. he told us, the trainees, that there's nothing constant in this world, nothing as absolute as change itself. i wasn't paying too much attention back then, until i experienced it myself. it's true that changes come to our lives so often, even when we don't want it, even when we feel very comfortable of ourselves.

i'm a kind of routine-and-constant-person. i don't really like changes. maybe that's because i'm a libra, who loves peace and harmony. and changes sometimes led us to chaos and unhappiness. but somehow life took me to constant changes. i was forced to be flexible and adaptable. it's me who have to adjust to those changes. i was evolving, changing. 

but lately i kind of tired doing adjustion (is that even a word? excuse my bad english guys,,,). if things don't go the way i want it to be, why can't i just take the exit route? why can't i just leave it all behind and take another road? i guess it will all come back to the same question. will i be able to accept the changes? do i dare?

i feel like i'm in an intersection right now, don't have a clue which way to take. what i want and what i need is very different. i wish someone will be kind enough to give me a direction, eventhough i know deep down inside that the decision is up to me. 

hopefully on the next 6 month i'll be confident enough to make the decision. so help me god,,,,