This Ramadhan,,,

I feel blessed,,, so blessed and gifted,,,,

This weekend I went home to Jember. Rhino was going home too. Mom & Dad invited orphans from our neighbourhood to break fasting at our house.

Looking at those little kids, so brave, so pure, so innocent, so happy,,,, I was speechless. My heart just melted. Some of them don't have a father to support their lives and to take care of their family. Some of them don't have a mother to love them. Some of them even don't have both father and mother.

I guess I've found the answer of my dilema, the question I've been asking for lately. If I had to work my ass off, working hard like there's no tomorrow, only to help them, to ease their worries away, to support them, to give them a happy childhood like I had,,, I'm more than willing to do so. I'll be gladly to do that.

I guess I just need a reason to stay at this company. Not only for the salary, the facilities, the luxury, the prestige that I got, not only for me nor my pride, but also for those kids. The more money that I make, the more support that I can give them.

If only I could frame those little happy faces, and keep them in my mind. All I want to do was hugging them, told them that life will be hard, but they don't have to be afraid, that they will be okay. Somehow I found strength in their smiles.

Subhanallah,,, maybe this is Ramadhan's blessings. Once again, Allah SWT works in a mysterious way,,,

Para Pencari Tuhan

Gw ngikutin sinetron ini  sejak Ramadhan 2 tahun yang lalu. Gara-gara Sari siiiih,,,hihihi,,, tiap sahur bareng nontonnya ini. Jadi deeeh ikutan nonton. Ternyata bagus juga kok. Semua yang kita temui, kita lihat, kita dengar sehari-hari, terangkum di sana. Dan semua tokohnya juga riil, ga ada yang baeeeeeek banget or jahaaaat banget, kaya tipikal sinetron-sinetron Indonesia.

Misalnya, Pak RW sebagai pimpinan yang ga amanah. Tapi kadang yang dia omongin bener juga, ga selalu salah. Atau Ustadz Ferry, yang panutan warga sekitar, tapi kalau ada ujian keimanan, sempet ragu juga dia. Namanya juga manusia.

Anyhow, Ramadhan kali ini, walaupun ga sahur bareng Sari lagi, tapi gw tetep nonton Para Pencari Tuhan. Karena ceritanya yang ringan, mengingatkan tanpa menggurui, menyindir walau secara tidak langsung. Mungkin juga karena sebenarnya gw salah satu dari mereka, para pencari Tuhan. Dalam semua ketidakpastian dalam hidup, dalam semua masalah yang kita hadapi, kemana lagi kita harus memohon bantuan?

But don't take it the wrong way, doa bukanlah ban serep yang dapat kita keluarkan saat dalam masalah, tapi kemudi untuk menunjukkan arah yang tepat. Ketka Tuhan memecahkan masalah kita, kita memiliki kepercayaan pada kemampuan-Nya. Tapi ketika Tuhan tidak dapat memecahkan masalah kita, Tuhan memiliki kepercayaan pada kemampuan kita. Paragraf terakhir ini gw contek dari bbm group (bukan gw mendadak bijaksana bijaksini yaaaa,,, :D ). Tapi menurut gw, ini bener bangeeet,,, and i just wanna share it to you all,,, May God bless us and be with us in every step that we take. Amiin,,,

The Good, The Bad and The I-Don't-Care

"Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn" - Rhett Butler

Since we're a little kid, we've been taught about the good and the bad. That it's important for us to be good, to our parents, to our friends, to our environment, and to God. That we should treat others with empathy and sympathy. That we should treat others the way we want to be treated. Otherwise, we're just being bad.

But those lessons  didn't taught us about what to be expected. Sometimes things don't go the way we want it to be. Sometimes people just don't treat us the way we want to be treated. But hey,,, we are not the center of the universe. That's the lesson of life. Even John Lennon said, "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans".

When your good is not good enough for some people, when they judge you easily without even giving you any explanation, you can be The Bad, you know. They've judged you anyway. So why should bother? But for me, I'm just stoned. My heart just frozen.  I don't even care. It's just a way to reach a peaceful mind, considering a peaceful mind is the most important thing (quote from Mba Izah,,, :) )

Moral of this posting is : Don't try to understand someone if it makes you tired. Cause life is too short and you won't be able to move on.

Happy fasting, y'all,,,,,